Wishing that it would change ,

Though not wanting th change .

Not wanting you to go ,

But you have to .

It's just for the best .

I'm getting real sick of all these .

I'm trying my best .

Hiding everything ,

I hope you'll understand .

It's not what i want ,

But it's for the best really .

Everything's in a mess now .

Not being able to do anything .

Just go .

I don't want to go through this anymore .

It's hurting .

I'm hurting .

Everything's hurting .

Nobody understands .

I'm sorry .

It's my fault really .

Maybe i should change .

Then it would all change .

For a better future i guess .

It's easier said than done .

But i must .

It's a must .

I don't wanna be unique .

I just wanna blend in .

I know i do ,

But i can't .

You won't understand .

Cause it's my life .

My decisions ,

Changes a whole lot of my life .

Your life too , probably .

I need to change . Drastically .

Everything's just cruel .

Cruel much .

i hate it all .

But , it's just life .

I wish that there weren't such a emotion .

Then it would all be alright .

Then everything would be good .

Life wouldn't be so sad anymore .

I'm just sorry for life .

That it has to be so saddening .

Having to part is so saddening .

Why do we humans have to endure all these shits .

Why do we have to get through it all .

You probably don't know .

Cause i probably hid it very well .

Or maybe , you're just ignorant .

I don't wanna know .

Cause i hope you would just leave me be .

Cause i don't want anybody to get hurt anymore .

It's just sad when it fades .

It's just sad when you get to know me more .

It's just sad when i know that one day ,

We will definitely drift apart .

So i'd rather stay this way .

Looking at you from a distance ,

Not letting my emotions control over me .

I want to go over .

But i dare not .

I don't want it to go any deeper .

You people just don't get me .

Nobody does .

I don't need anybody to get me either .

Cause i'm fine th way i am .

Nobody would ever know what i'm thinking about .

Cause it's just my head .

Nobody get in it ,

And i like it .

Cause it's so much better .

I don't get myself at times either .

But that's just fine with me .

Let's just make this a secret .

A secret for myself .

Hopefully , it'll never be out .

Camp tomorrow .

Trials tomorrow .

Hope it all goes well .