I don't know what to do.
I know it's you I want.
But I just can't take it when I see so many tragedies happening around me.
Afraid of what might turn out.
I'm scared.
Real scared.
But it's hurting so much.
I wish you knew.
But I guess I'm just used to hiding my emotions.
Cause nobody really did care till now.
And I've hidden my emotions till now.
I tried to change but I just don't seem to know how to open up at all.
I'm just this way. 
It's a habit already.
And I'm really regretting.
I'm sorry I brought so much misery.
You could just simply make my day.
But I just keep hurting you.
Why must it be this way..
I fuckin hate myself.
I just simply can't do a fuckin thing right.
I'm sorry.
Really sorry.
I don't know what to do.
Would anybody tell me what's th right thing to do?
Would I ever be able to do th right thing?
I suck.